Why am I a Christian? Why did I decide to take this path down the road? Maybe it's time to rethink these questions. Back to basics I guess..
Took my first Holy Communion today, it was rather uneventful. But the biscuits did remind me of those large flat colourful crackers I used to eat last time when I was a kid. Haha and Sus, Claudia and me were talking bout using large crackers and try to consume HC. Lol. Just imagine. :)
11:00 PM /
Saturday, December 26, 2009
I met a pretty girl named Hannah today. Was really really intrigued by her, but not only because she had the same name as my cousin and was the same age as me, but rather she was the cell leader of my dear friend Glen! It just dawned to me when I talked to Glen about his church and his youth, why are we not like that? I figured that CHS PC has so much untapped potential. What's stopping it is bare ignorance, laziness and stubborness to change. (Myself included) We refuse to submit to higher authority, believing that what we do is right, and even though we know it's wrong, we choose not to find strength to make that change possible submitting to our own flesh instead. 19 and a cell leader. I'm 19 and I'm still sitting here finishing up discipleship training.
I want that change for myself, that exponential growth for me and for Point Comm. And I'll keep pressing on towards that goal. Now's just left the motivation to keep moving on..
Carissa: Lol. When was that? :o
10:37 PM /
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Wonderful day at lunch with the oldies today. Price was pretty steep but I'm glad I saved for it at least. Finished buying 90% of my presents so I'm going to finish up the rest maybe on thursday when I head out.
(space)
I wanna to drop down and cry. Waves after waves of emotions just hit again and again. It's so tough knowing it is there! Yet choosing to honor God and her by waiting just pushes you deeper into sorrow. There never is a sense of joy when you cruxify yourself for Christ. But deep deep down, as my heart and tears cry out, I know there must be something more to this.
(space)
God show me please.
12:28 AM /
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Nicole Nordeman: Legacy
(space)
The reason why I do it.
(space)
RockRhymeReason.
9:28 PM /
Monday, December 14, 2009
I'm in shock, Awe, Frozen, Stupified. Is it something you want me to do God? If not why has so many people approached me to teach! I'm still so uncertain and afraid. I have chosen a career to teach people about music. People after people have told me to press for my dream. People who completely do not know my life at all!
(space)
I need an confirmation soon.
(space)
(space)
In the midst of my life I cry out, in simple cry from a questioning soul, and a heart that hungers for the truth, might the spirit be set free from it's weights.