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One way. One Desire.
Constant on-flowing of thoughts just seem to dictate the conflict of a human mind. So what do we really want out of our walk? Questions and questions and more questions. Sometimes i'd realised following God's will seem to hit a grey area at times. You might not realise it but you may be walking in the will of your flesh unknowingly. What you want can be such a seductive thing.
I guess in some way our spirit screams for some degree of growth with God. Instead of screaming "I WANT TO GROW!!" all the time, i really pause to wonder what can you do to actually help in it. Praying only does so much unless it's coupled with a certain degree of actions after all.
A mentor perhaps? CHS does have a lack of those around. A sense of security perhaps. I feel as though if we don't have those around, we're like walking around in pitch black. Literally. I wanna grow up, I wanna mature, in every aspect. I dunno how many people actually share that kind of feeling and desire. Faith leads you in strange ways. I should really join Marcus. I think it's really time to move on. That desire is kinda flushed out right now in confusion. I guess i gotta sort this out with God later. Our nature can be such an obstruction at times.
I guess at the end of the day we'll still reach that destination, only i don't want to end up having someone alot younger than me beating me to it just because of my ignorance and arrogance. (: Oh well, awaiting quality QT and prayer tonight. God speak to me. Please.